Late night thoughts on faith

24/2/22 as Iie in a dark room feeding the baby to sleep…

I have realised what faith is.

Having faith in myself isn't just a pump-up of confidence and healthy self-esteem.

Faith is trusting and understanding that the same power, the same life force that we all share, the same life force with which tsunamis swallow coastlines and tectonic plates shift, is abundant in my body. This is not about the "self" - not about ego.

Faith is about letting go of my ego and submitting to nature. Allowing an eternity of bodily memories to guide me to do what's right. My bones know if I just listen.

And my body? What am I? Just a cluster of matter smooshed together, made of the food I eat, the movements I make, and the environment around me. Bodily memories stretch way beyond this form I see and call my own today.

Matter can never be created or destroyed.

With each breath, I change. With each breath, I let go of the old and welcome the new.

I have faith that the power is within me. Life force drives me and guides me. And I listen.